'Horoscopes?'

Horoscopes hmmm.... something which we all deny to believe but still believe to some extend, atleast that's the case with me.


we all have an upcoming test, not just one but like an whole brigade of tests n assignment deadlines, but somehow the topic of horoscopes gets picked up, n we all r sitting straight up, as we were barely awake before it lost n sleepy on d books we were supposed to b studying :P


everyone decides to explore their characteristics that they r supposed to show according to their sun signs, n voila everyone's screaming n shouting "hear mine, hear mine", everone's chance comes, so we get to hear sagittarius , scorpio , virgo , loads of compatibility among sun-signs , many times everyone woud agree n sometimes they won't , people would scream on something thats right and also on something that was wrong n didn't match the personality as described, we searched guys profiles for date of births n sun-signs to match, asked people about the date of birth and the sun-signs they have. Well it was one heck of a racket :P.


Now the important point, I never ever read my characteristics according to the sun sign as i was born on a date that is included in both cancer n leo, n i assumed that u r maybe supposed to read  both cancer n leo n assume u have a mixed personality or something of some kind , so today i found what my sun sign is actually called as a "cusp" a cancer/leo cusp.

I actually found my sun-sign interesting to read it matched much of my traits n explained me a lot about why people find me so hard to read at times, my cusp is also called "the cusp of oscillation" so basically i am supposed be like that moving too much between emotions n between movement as such, i am stuck between the game of fire n water n that makes my sign more unpredictable n interesting. How i thought that i have a mixed characteristics of both cancer n leo, I have selected characteristics of both.
now coming to the real interesting part, "This particular cusp combination frequently produces the most corrupt of politicians who attain eminence".. :P, yeah that's the interesting part about which i was thinking about for a long time actually :P:P;)... ok now why i was thinkin about this is that something had happened later which had showed way to much manipulation by me, even though people did or didn't c it but i saw it , i was too manipulating, i really did pull a drama which even i didn't know i would be able to do, but i did, n that actually made me think, am i a real bad person or is it just my mental build up that i am capable of being as corrupt that i am doing such stuff. :\ .hmmm..... something for me to think about. :P 


But subconsciously i did feel bad ... actually i didn't n i don't even know why i am not feeling guilty, i guess i am corrupt after all ;)


or as my roomie would say "ye na badi khoti h" :P:P
PS: if u wanna know more about my cusp just goto :http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/cancercusp.html
or http://www.alwaysastrology.com/cancer-leo-cusp.html

HAPPINESS.....

what is happiness to you.. is it the joy of making someone smile or is it spending time wth the ones who u care about the most or just being far and knowing that someone u care about is happy or making new friends or getting awesome marks or talking to your long lost friends  or  just being what you are what u reallly stand for... being u.

for me it is a lil bit compliated i havent really been able to figure out what makes me really happy, i no i was upset when my dear friend was upset n tensed about marks, i no i was sad when i got to no that my moody replies were thought to b rude replies by sum1 or when sum1 calls me and tells me i think i disturb you thats why u don't wanna answer my phones, when i was sleeping one day and my phone was on silent, or when sumone reminds me of the death of someone dear, or when someone doesn't like me without any intensional reasons..... so i have got all this info, so what do i do with it i still dunno what is the mantra of happiness for me..

so i had this secret thing i like it when i help someone or make them smile by just helping, or when someone says that they love me , or like me, or just spending time with the people who i care about or  just when i am sittin by myself thinking... listening to music  and still have a blank mind :):),but isn't this like temprorary happiness......and is that what really happiness is all about or is their someway that you can be happy forever, or is life about continuously running after happiness or will it come to you eventually.....?????

a new begining.........

why am i even writing a blog.... absolutly no idea.... still i am writing it.....  :P

if i have 2 write about something i must write sumthing sensible .... yes  ... if sumthing like that is possible :P :P

Now the title of this post .... 'new begining' as in a new life in a city not new to me.... a new beggining as in begining of collge life... new begining as in ....... finally being 18 :D :P ;)

so lets talk about my new life in the city where i grew up.... and after 5 years am back here..... :D:D.... delhi... 'the delhi' i was so happy when i got to no i am cmin back here to study.... most of my life was spent here... n it was an amazing feeling to b back here so it didnt really matter if i had to stay alone here...( alone as in in d hostel widout family n all u no....)

Actually i didn't mind at all to stay in the hostel...i was actually glad.... cause u no i was staying in mumbai with my dada dadi and dad.... and i didnt really get along with dada dadi... i mean with all their do this and do that blah blah.....so i wanted to go away frm there... so hence don't mind the hostel condition came into being ..... plus my mama's house and my chacha's house is pretty near to my hostel so it didn't really matter staying in a hostel i could always go my half homes for the weekend...

now my college.... i had always imagined engineering colleges to be a place of you greesy peeps soaked deep in studies all the time... no fun just books books and all....but my college... I love my college.... it's not like we don't study... but that's not it.... the crowd at my college is what i like the most... there's no moment of boredom.. well almost... :P .... just see around and something or the other s always going on.....  if something is not happening around ... look further there's always sumthing happening inside where i live.......

now lemme tell you sumthing a bout where i live..... i have never been in a place like it before a new expirience for me... i met totaly new people who are now virtually my new family.... but that's just what everyone would say on the outside.... but is it true... now that would be a nice topic of discussion but more on that l8r.... but it's nice... i like to spend time with the members of my covanent... :P
but it's true... living with people who are from different backgrounds who have different tastes, when u just don't really have a choice but to live with them accepting them for who they are .... and knowing more and more about them... it's quite an expirience .... and believe me it is... it is good bad and weird... :P :P

so in the end of it all i would just say that...new beginings for me have been pretty nice for me and am sorta lucky in that way and i hope that writing a blog would be hopefully a nice expirience too... :):)